Caliginous

Scattered jittered thoughts.
Reflecting on everything.
Mind wide open while slamming shut.
Fingers jump and skitter.
Breath exhaled quickly stuttered.

Skin crawling down the sleeves.
Jumping down while seated down.
Blood pumps high and swiftly.
Eyes wide open with dilation.
Pure panic set without a lining.

Screaming loud to hear the world.
Silently close the distant eyes.
Clenching fists as yet not closed.
Fingers stretched in pain and stiffness.
Stabbing pain without the closure.

Draw the map of all my problems.
Scattered lines that somehow meet.
A spiders silk entwined with sympathy.
Self doubt and needless hate.
Losing oneself within the body.

Loose the strands start entwined about.
But thick and strong they form together.
This noose is strong and darkened, bitter.
Wrought by mine own hands beneath me.
I wait with bated breath the fall.

In the darkness it drags me down.
No light has passed this way.
Fade the breath of simple choices.
To drag them down or let them go.
Fear the chilling grasp, damnation.

Black wings avail me.
Shroud the darkness around me.
Entwine me in subtle darkness.
Embrace the shattered shell within.
I descend upon the darkened halls.

Light is holy but unbecoming.
I, scarred both within and without.
Am a creature of shadow.
Fallen from the light.
I embrace the darkness within.

Fight ye not against you reckoning.
Find the part of you that lingers.
Tear the hope of light from in you.
Will yourself, away the pain.
Entrust yourself, comfort the rain.

Speak to darkness, it dwells within you.
Calming, twisting, simple silence.
Gone the conflict that was eternal.
To fight the light or shy away.
Running not we are but blinded.

Forged anew in caliginous murk.